Paralympics 2016: US sprinter Patrick Blake Leeper vows Rio ban won't 'break him'

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    • US sprinter Patrick Blake Leeper can't compete at 2016 Paralaympics
    • Currently serving doping ban
    • Lost CAS appeal in August

    (CNN)"I hate the fact that I have to sit here today and have this conversation with you. I wish it was a conversation about the times I'm running or what time I'm going to win the gold medal in."

    American star sprinter Patrick Blake Leeper wishes he were in Rio de Janiero right now, participating in the 2016 Paralympics. Instead, he's speaking to CNN from his home in Los Angeles, after losing an appeal to the Court of Arbitration (CAS) for Sport last month.
      In 2012, the American, medaled twice at the Paralympic Games in London. He earned a bronze for the 200 meters race and a silver medal for the 400m, seconds behind South Africa's Oscar Pistorius.
      He vividly remembers how he found out he would not get his chance to shine four years on.
      "I was doing relay practice, ready to take the anchor leg ... practising how I was going to break Oscar's world record in the 400m then I got a phone call to say 'sorry but you're not going,'" Leeper told CNN.
      "Oh my God that hurt. I didn't know what to do. For two days straight I can't sleep, I can't eat. It's all like a bad dream again."