“As long as we see him, that is the only way that we can move on. But without returning his body, we will forget that he’s dead. We will keep thinking that there is a day that he will come back.”
“My heart isn’t really excited. I feel like there’s something bad ahead, but I don’t know what,” the WhatsApp message read.
Karanja was traveling from Canada to Kenya with her three children and her mother. She was so worried about the trip, she sent a similar message expressing her fear of the impending journey to her father before she boarded the flight.
Thousands of miles away in Kenya, worried about her older sister’s premonition, Kelly Karanja asked her the exact day she’d arrive and told her to pray about it.
“10th. Will let you know the time,” Carol Karanja messaged.
Carol Karanja never made it to their Kenyan homeland. She was among the 157 people killed when the plane crashed just minutes after takeoff from Bole International Airport in Addis Ababa. Also killed was her mother, Ann Wangui Karanja, and her three children: Ryan Njoroge, 7, Kellie Pauls, 4, and 9-month-old daughter, Rubi Pauls.
Rubi was born in Ontario, where the family lived. She was going home for the first time to meet her Kenyan family.
Her son had a gift for his grandfather
Kelly Karanja said her sister was deeply spiritual.
“She was always the telepathic one,” she said. “She was also jovial, funny, selfless, the one who brought the family together. We are not able to put into words the kind of woman she was. She was just awesome.”
Before her flight, Carol Karanja texted her father, John Quindos Karanja, and expressed her fear for the impending journey.
“The day before the flight my daughter sent me a message – and she told me, ’ I’m not excited. I don’t know what is happening dad. I am fearing and I don’t know what it is in me,’ She had fears,” her father said. “So I thought that was normal. We never interacted again.”
Ryan, her eldest son, was close with his grandfather, and they would speak every day via video call, John Quindos Karanja said.
A few days before they flew out, Ryan told his grandfather he planned to borrow some money from his dad and buy him a present, Kelly Karanja said.
The day after they got the news, the grandfather turned to family members and said: “I wonder what Ryan was bringing for me?”
She was a mother, a wife and an accountant
Before relocating to Hamilton, Ontario, in May 2017, Carol Karanja split her time between Boston and Kenya. She also previously lived in Bermuda, where her husband, Paul Njoroge, works and did not accompany the family on the trip.
Carol Karanja’s friends painted a picture of a doting mom who juggled a hectic work schedule as an accountant at an energy firm in Canada.
“She enjoyed cooking for them, breakfast, lunch, dinner. She was a true homemaker,” said Florence Brown, her friend of six years who lives in Bermuda. “It took a while for me to convince her that it was OK to give her kids some KFC, some TV dinners, especially when she was overwhelmed and busy.”
One of the last messages Carol Karanja posted on Facebook asked for tips on what to feed Rubi during the flight.
“She is so fussy when hungry and nursing her isn’t enough ‘cos she is a big girl now. She eats more than my four-year-old; what can I carry for her?” she asked her friends.
A devastated community mourns
Back home in Kenya, a devastated family is trying to come to terms with the loss of three generations.
A constant stream of visitors come to the family compound outside the town of Nakuru since news of the crash broke. More than 100 people have poured in each day since Sunday.
Inside the home hidden behind a bright blue gate, a group of women make huge pots of tea for the visitors as they sit and share memories. They are part of a local group mentored by Ann, the matriarch of the family and a former primary school teacher.
“We’ll never get another person like her – she’s left a gap that no one can fill. She was so generous to us. We have to be generous to honor her,” said Monica Magiri, a neighbor.
The discussion turns to questions about the safety of the Boeing 737 Max 8 aircraft after airlines around the world grounded the aircraft. But Carol Karanja’s brother says he has no interest in pointing fingers after his family’s tragedy.
“If you look at having to point blame on others, I think it will make the healing process a bit more hard for us,” Quindos Mwangi Karanja said.
“I might not know exactly whether to blame the plane but let the experts finish their investigations. And then they are able to tell us the way forward.”
The family has started a GoFundMe fundraiser to help with funeral expenses.
CNN’s Farai Sevenzo and Briana Duggan reported from Kenya, and Faith Karimi reported and wrote from Atlanta. Stephanie Busari contributed to this report.